Impostor Syndrome is fun!
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piledhigheranddeeperI'm having horrible impostor syndrome today, woe.
I'm a part-time student, and went part-time because of my husband's health issues. My adviser and the head of the department and I all sat down and had a conversation and this was the decision we thought best, and everyone's been really encouraging, and even the department secretary send me little check-in emails once a month to make sure I'm doing okay.
But everyone else is full-time, and my favourite people are doing their MA-defense in August, and I'm feeling like a total faker because I'm not anywhere close to where I should be if I were a full-time student, and everyone is obviously smarter than me and I'm never going to get accepted for a PhD and everyone hates me and I'm stupid. (Even I can see this logic is flawed, but logic is not part of this.)
I'm assuming that I'm not actually alone in "I suck and I'm only in this program because everyone feels sorry for me." What are you ways of coping? So far I'm just reminding myself that my adviser is well-known for providing blunt commentary on one's papers and mostly she just wants me to use academic language a bit more than I do, so obviously I'm not totally worthless right? right?
So, what are your ways of coping or working past it all?
I'm a part-time student, and went part-time because of my husband's health issues. My adviser and the head of the department and I all sat down and had a conversation and this was the decision we thought best, and everyone's been really encouraging, and even the department secretary send me little check-in emails once a month to make sure I'm doing okay.
But everyone else is full-time, and my favourite people are doing their MA-defense in August, and I'm feeling like a total faker because I'm not anywhere close to where I should be if I were a full-time student, and everyone is obviously smarter than me and I'm never going to get accepted for a PhD and everyone hates me and I'm stupid. (Even I can see this logic is flawed, but logic is not part of this.)
I'm assuming that I'm not actually alone in "I suck and I'm only in this program because everyone feels sorry for me." What are you ways of coping? So far I'm just reminding myself that my adviser is well-known for providing blunt commentary on one's papers and mostly she just wants me to use academic language a bit more than I do, so obviously I'm not totally worthless right? right?
So, what are your ways of coping or working past it all?
